I did not remember my name. I had lost my existence. I did not know what I was, I lay somewhere in a dark city where the mind failed to function and the heart cried out being desperate. I was lost in a world of nothingness and got out to become something separate. Who was I ? Where did I live? I wanted to know. I was lost in a frenzy of thoughts, I thought what next should be done. I was becoming mad and all forces were conspiring against me in sum. Is a man a friend of another, this makes my conscience and judgement get bothered. Do I believe that man is a creative genius from the hands of the Almighty? I would rather say he is an animal wild and ferocious who tries to kill and curse his brothers. And then getting hands red with the blood of a brother enjoys a great feast at an evil party. I speak as such because I am no one special here in the world of man and he has done all the worst he could, he can. I am a loner, a victim of irreversible reactions inflicted on my soul. I curse myself for being so true-hearted and a person with qualities whole. I too am a man, sadly, but I do not belong here. I live here in compulsion, out of fear. My eyes have shed out lots of tears and there have been souls who have splashed mugs of drinks with full spirited hearts at my downfall and said cheers! cheers! cheers! Here I talk about my friends whom I thought were my saviours and well-wishers. But I was wrong utterly, they were in reality wolves under the skins of goats, they are real criminals, real killers. A man is so capable now to produce the wrong quality, he has made his place secure in hell with a negative individuality. He will butcher a man another and not feel a stir of soul. He is playing very articulately the Dracula’s role. A man who has thought would achieve all because of his intellectual superiority, is also becoming the subject of the devil’s curiosity because he has surpassed all the levels, he has crossed all the roads to reach the level of filth and shit, he thinks by having qualities of jealousy, hatred, hypocrisy, double-standards, he is a super hit. But then after losing all my faith in fellow beings, I found true peace in God who showed me the light in the tunnel, who gave me a helping hand to stand, who said that with good qualities you are always in demand. He made me feel better, he instilled in me boldness and substance. He said make worthy your life and your existence. God is a force who helps you come out of blues and one in whom if you have faith, you feel top of all and inside yourself, you find great importance.
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I am Ambika Jha.I like to write on different topics.I feel life is too short for anything.So let us work our best in the given time and let life's music be in rhythm and rhyme.So be your best and never stop to learn and write. View more posts