A piece on giving importance to self first and finding a second way when the first spells disaster.
That life is a blessing, it doesn’t suit my moments. It leaves emptiness behind. What it meant for me is something which will leave questions in other’s minds. I have come, will do my deeds, will try not to repeat mistakes and try to cut the scene of life as merry as I can possibly manage to. I know I have to feel all the shades of this life, no one is a specialty in it and that I would have to feel the harsh jitters of my share. I want to know though, more than would matter and I want to clear all clutter spread around. I want to know how I can save myself from the wrath and fury of bad bondings and love and I want to evade heartbreaks. I could not understand this pink and pleasure emotion well enough though I tried hard too. It was all grey in fifty shades for me. I don’t know what is the truth actually and how it makes the world, emotions, and man stabilized. I could only taste bitter lies in all eyes that met mine to give a sick feeling back to back every time, all the time. I though am on the lookout of another way. A way which will calm my senses, bring back my lost feathers of fun, fancy and spirits, to help me come back to life, meet it not halfways but in a totality of real- no- fantasy bliss. I have made myself a fool many times but this last chance to bounce back brave and gorgeous is something I don’t want to miss. I now want to find ways to live again, free and fine. I want to help all who want it. I want to make the heavens unite with the earth and give humanity a second very true, very perfect, acceptable birth. I would want to let out all the demons from the hearts, make compassion a wanted necessity to be inbred in all, give love and life wider strides to carry on their unfinished chores and to create a super fab story of life, love, and desires from the starts. I wanted to let go, of myself in the turbulent tide of life, mess it up, never to come back to myself and feel a miserable, permanent nobody. But that was just yesterday’s part, today, I am rehearsing my new start. To stand out pretty,posie and perfect. To know that you don’t always need to make someone happy who doesn’t understand your heart ever to feel the same. You live for yourself, your name. Give your poor heart some solace, don’t go down disgraced. Life is given to you to make you feel that you are special in the gaze of God. So don’t ever lose heart, fight with even one eye and a leg, but for your joys and your existence don’t depend on anyone. For the shares of your part in life, you don’t have to borrow, steal or beg. Life wants you to find the other way, to make you feel like a princess. It does not want to make you a mess. Always love yourself before any other soul. You complete your life with your endeavors, don’t have to feel sorry or small. Someday or the other in life, you will feel the best in everything that you have and do. You will feel you have heard rightly your call.